I ch-ch-chose this

One of my favorite Simpsons episodes involved Lisa giving Ralph Wiggum a valentine. The little train engine on the cover said "I choo-choo-choose you". Later in the episode, at the Krusty television bash, Lisa broke the news to Ralph that he is not the man for her. It was possible to pinpoint the moment that Ralph's heart broke.

Today, as I attemped a sad push-up while my trainer watched, I think my heart broke just a little. I doubted myself, and my ability to do this, for the first time.

I have SO far to go to get in shape to be in the roller derby. I'm not really upset that I've "let things go" this far. I'm more intimidated by how much work I have ahead to me to get back in shape AND learn how to skate.

Then again, I've never wanted something like this before. I sat at the derby and knew it was for me. It's what I need in my life right now. I'll keep that in mind as I suffer through my hours at the gym.

And Britt, if you're reading this, I'm going to be fine. Really. Even with the push-ups.